nervous

Kim ( one of my good friends and bandmates) and I are attending a independent music conference this weekend. And we were asked to be the guinea pigs for a session with a well-known performance coach, Tom Jackson. Basically – from what I understand – we will play a few of our songs and he will coach us how to make it better. How? No idea. And suddenly I am very, very nervous. I know it’s weird to say, but I do NOT like being in the spotlights. Yeah I know. I’m a singer….. but I really, really don’t. I am nervous that I will not be able to follow Tom’s directions, that I will look like an idiot, that I will have a bad pain attack right at that moment……

 

Oh. And then (yes. I am a glutton for punishment.) I was asked to present three original songs tonight during songwriting showcase. No problem, right? Except for this one, I have to play solo. Kim cannot accompany me. And I have never – NEVER – played my own music in public. I barely have ever played it in private. So the question is: why do I do this to myself? Groan.

~ by jeanineguidry on June 21, 2008.